well,today was a good day..at first it was a lil rocky but then after i wrote my feeelings down i seemed to feel alot better:) but the bad news is i ve developed a crush on my friend joseph which is not good..he's in love with his girlfriend i mean im not liking him to wear i want him to breakup with his girlfriend i just like him alot..*sighs* but at this moment im tired of dating:p *shocker* i know but im just tired of gettin hurt and gettin screwed over ti'll i just don't want to date anymore...it sucks i wish i had the freedom to go out and find someone like get a chance to go to the park or sumthing i don't really have a crush on anyone besides joseph rite now...ehh my mood feels sad idk why im havin these mood swings..one minute im happy that pats gone and the next i really want him back:( ugh! i hate this i really wish i never went out with him..but he did teach my a lesson to watch my back and to listen to what other people say about a person..